The Search For Silence

No matter what, it's never enough. I’m never enough. It’s too much, it’s a lot. I’m caught, caught between what I want, and what achievements others expect. Caught between what I deserve, and the treatment I receive. No matter where I am or who I talk to, they always need to criticise. Their opinions are always voiced as "advice”, sometimes I’m afraid their words may be true. I want to be free of judgement, and free to do as I please. I’d like to wear makeup or any sort of garments, without the buzz of the fleas. I wish I could just smack everyone away. I’d be happier without the chatters and buzz. The time doesn't matter, night or day, I just want to be able to do what I want without a fuss.