The Search

If you only had one wish what would it be? Would it be something that can change your life completely, or something that will make you very happy. I have guilt inside, it's just something i have no power to control, it is something divine something you've got to respect, because this is something worth dying for. It is something we search for but only a few discover. It is something we thought we already knew but really have no idea of what this truly means. We've got to respect it's power, for it is the most powerful feeling in this world over. It is universal. Some people search for a lifetime and fail, and they ask themselves where to find hope. I know i can't live without it. I had my shares of happiness and sorrows and both inspired me in different ways, and it's effect can be both constructive and destructive. We all got to know what we're dealing with. In my whole existence i have failed to find the truest, purest... and none of them were able to give their all but i do give it all and suffered in the sunset. When will we learn? This is not a game we play and finish like it's going to be forgotten in an instant. We're going to carry this with us 'til the falling of the leaves... 'til the end of our days. And to me this is something more than anything you could ask for... you can't and you will never ever going to find it when you don't believe in it. It is something that comes to you when you have faith in it. And most of us don't. And alot of people tried to tell what this is about and what it means to them and to us but no one really can. It's not enough, never enough to define something so huge and bigger than us, it is impossible. We just look at that someone and when you feel it you know it is there. And you know that moment is special. To me....... this is poison, this is heaven... it is good and can be pain. this is numb, this is feeling... it is passion at it's purest. Cry at night til the morning. Can't get enough, no nothing is enough. And you keep asking for more and more even if it hurts most of the time. Because you need it and you want it and it is worth it. And if you see it you grab on to it and don't let go. You cherish it and you don't take that for granted because what you have is so precious. And i wouldn't stop drinking it til it runs dry. And i hope it never runs dry.... And that's my only wish.