The Screaming Souls of a Soundless Forest

I romanticize the single room without a jurisdiction If only I could filter through a voice of logic over reaction Would it impel my inner child to regress into an illusion? My mind composes a structure but it’s just a series of buildings Some of them unfrequented, some of them abandoned Some of them radiant, some of them overly confident But a shy whisper in the form of a wind gust, could sway the structures built on purely mistrust And it's too easy to hide within the claw marks of moss coating the entire outside Don't speak for both of us Don't speak at all I will announce that on my own, I will handle this But like the slow drips of attention from you, Any progress will only come in ounces If rejection is god’s protection, Then why do I reject the healing process? Don't speak for both of us Better yet, don’t speak at all Well everything's the same, just more desolate It's quiet but I can hear your voice ringing between the skyscraper windows The mutters under my breath carry like wind and turn into bellows And your energy I've been feeding off of Swims for miles through the power lines When everything goes dark, you'll know I turned it off But my tolerance is as far as the eye can see! So light is what I’ll keep bringing to this But the edges are too jagged of the fluorescent tubes of cognitive dissonance And something keeps attaching the messages to birds that I keep finding You ignore me, well I already ignored the world for half a decade These blurred lines of affection merely look the same Full body cast, no hospital bed Ambulance fee, driving off cliffs instead Prognosis; antisocial, Something we never could've learned in school Wish me a happy birthday for old times sake So many shrinking candles on a time-line of cakes, all these wavering voices of attention just sound the same But wish me a happy birthday for my inner child’s sake Congrats, it was a test and you failed The destructive silence from my phone tells me nothings changed Congrats, it was a test and you failed But I watched you leave everything behind and conform You said this book is over, but something keeps attaching these messages to birds Why did I feel so alienated when it was my hand reaching out? It feels like middle school gym class and you’re the heroes picking teams Everyone’s projected injustice worked to fuel you eminently But no one was looking in my eyes when I was angry I’m trying to capture a feeling that never belonged to me If this is how you want this to end, Then pull the plug, but first, make sure it’s seized around my neck I’m eating my heart for sustenance I’m draining my brain onto the journal page for evidence I’m sleepwalking through this nightmare While your sprinting through my town of dreams On an weather-shifting island called cognitive dissonance Remember when I asked if you’d stand and watch it burn with me? I was hardly looking for one, But your cold and anxious lips Seduced the answer I was shielding myself from Self reliant or too parentified? I’m afraid I lost the part of me that looked at the world composedly “You’re never too young to be aware of your own impact” But I wasn’t too young to be manipulated Into building castles of stone from the weight on your back? What I could carry was overlooked anyways I couldn’t hold the compass, so I was left spinning in every direction I couldn’t hold the needle, cause your toxic acquisitions were enough of an injection What I could carry was always overlooked anyways It's a day in the life of a failure Every wisp of the pen just keeps giving you more power I’m a prisoner awaiting a death sentence, chained to the walls of the incentive “You’re never too young to be aware of your own impact” But why do you have to take my pride just so you can have yours back?