The Right Thing

Dear me, When people say something I don't like, I want to get mad, I want to get upset, but then I tell myself that I have to be the bigger person for things to get better and just take a deep breath and distribute an apology where needed and whatever other sugarcoated bullshit that the situation need. And, yes, I make the other person happy. But not me. Why? Because I believe there should be peace. Wait, no, scratch that (Literally, since I can scratch it out here). Why? Because? I WANT there to be peace. I'm the type of person that does not like having guilt nagging at her skull and eating at her heart. So, what do I do? I do whatever I can to repair everyone's heart the best I can and, BAM! I got exactly what I wanted. Well...almost what I wanted; Sometimes it takes a lot to change someone's mind. And, I guess, that's enough for me. What I do, my friends, is called "Turning the other cheek". I try to do that now, because I believe it's the right thing to do. I didn't used to do that, though. I used to yell and scream and act the worst way. But then, I told myself that things would be much better if I do what I'm doing now. But sometimes it doesn't always work out in my favor. Okay, okay, fine. Most of the time it doesn't work out in my favor. I usually end up getting hurt by "Turning the other cheek". Why? Because I can't say what I want to say. I can't do what I want, because that would go against "Keeping the peace," and what I believe in now, which is just that. Sometimes people don't see that I'm trying to keep the peace, and they think the worst of me. Sometimes I end up crying. Sometimes the other people don't care. Sometimes I end up back where I was in the first place Alone and miserable. But, I will stick by my new policy because it's the right thing to do. But...really, what IS the "Right thing to do"? What do you think would be the right thing to do for this kind of thing? Is there even a right way? A wrong way? An in between way? Do you think I'm doing the right thing? It doesn't feel like I am. But, I'm too afraid of losing the people I care about to not do it. Ah, man. This is quite the predicament that I'm in. Is there no justice? Sincerely, The Confused One Of The Bunch.