The Realization

People tend to use me I always fail to see I love others much more than I know they will ever love me. Mind full of sick thoughts and chest filled with emotions they say still waters run deep but my pain is more intense than the ocean. God shows me the light I guess I just chose to stay down. So that's probably why when I cry to him now, he turns his back and tunes out the sound. I guess I can't be mad cause I'm doing this to myself I have thoughts periodically of letting go And build my happiness with someone else. Lord I lost my brother I rocked him until he finally got a chance to see you. Now I wish it was me instead of him because I know that death unlike life is peaceful. I'm not really sure what I want but I know I'm stronger than this. For I know what I do but to be accepted I act as if ignorance is bliss. No blood spilled on the pavement but tears roll down my cheeks, and I don't wipe my tears away cause a man who can't express his emotions is weak.