The Real Me?

I'm not afraid of you, I'm more afraid of me. It's not what I was, but what I'm beginning to be. I'm looking at you, your looking at me, look even closer and tell me truthfully, what do you see? Is it me, have I changed what type of person I used to be? Let me ask you what type of person do you see me to be? Is it good? Is it bad? If I say I'm a b**ch, do you agree? If I say I'm an angel, am I confusing you with me? How did I get here, what did I do, my path, my future I thought I knew. I'm afraid my worst fears are coming true. I'm being what I didn't want to be, and doing all the things I said I swore I wouldn't do. You agree don't you, you know that these statements are true. Help me change my ways, I'm at a lost for what to do. I keep thinking of what I have become... it's exactly what I told myself I never wanted to. I've messed up everything I had going for me, and now I'm the one looking like a fool. I'm a bad person, I've turned into someone cruel. "Treat others how you want to be treated".... for goodness sake, I don't even follow the Golden Rule. What is wrong, how do I change, how do I go back to what I was all along... maybe that's it, the reason I can't stop the change, maybe deep down inside this has always been the real me. Only now I'm professing it to myself and I don't really like what I see. So I'm asking you honestly, please tell me what you think. Am I being what I'm destined to be? Does this mean that these personalities, characteristics, and traits... are you saying that this is the Real Me?