The Place You Put Me In

As I sit here in the middle of our bed I stair at my med bottles Tears streaming down my face My heart laying at my feet Shattered and broken into a zillion pieces My thoughts so confusing My emotions ragging out of control And so overwhelming My vision so unclear Hurt and pain engulf my body This hell I am in here and now Is all because of you Everything you taught me now destroyed Trust broken Heart shattered World destroyed This hell is becoming almost to much for me to bare I am trying to be fair to everyone I am trying to be strong But without you I don’t know if I can survive You say I did nothing wrong How can the be When your love for me is gone I don’t know what to do or say For you to change your heart and mind and stay No matter what I do or say I am the one who hurts and looses This pain keeps hurting more and more each day My love for you will always remain There are only two ways I see to end this awful hurt and pain One for you to come back to me and love me again Two to end this hurt, pain and suffering for good To take all my meds and walk away to die on my own The first unfair to you The last unfair to our children I pray that the good Lord watches over me And shows me another path For I am afraid that I will end this pain for me Only to cause a lifetime of hurt and pain for our children