The Philanderer

Am I just afraid? Judging the way I had lived, Not only had I been a slave to sin, But have been living in it. Am I damned? Not that I made a trade for fame, But the things I have done in widows close, Am timorous of what I am? Am a philanderer? Storming in lust, Not that I what it that way, But I just am. Am I just confused? Or have cherry-pick troubles? Not for once had I had this occurrences, But I was just there. Am scared? If I can just revolutionize, I pray, God! Just wondering if God will exonerate me?