The Person Within Me

Dear person within me, all I ask is that you forgive me for always letting you down. Nothing you wanted was given to you, I regret this even now. For every profound word spoken, for every sin and hearts that were broken, please take this token of my grief. I only wish to find relief from my dark shadows. As they scream and howl, I feel their teeth piercing deep within my bone marrow. If only I could kill them with arrows but no such weapon could harm them; they are my mistakes. I'll do whatever it takes to gain your favor, just tell me the road to take. I know the pain that you've suffer and the disappointments that you've faced. I cant erase the past as for the future I draw a blank. My poison is your poison for I know I am slowly dying every night I lay crying as I think of what my life has come to be. I can not promise a new life, I can't swear things will change, I can only ask that you look at me and not hate my very existence. We are one in the same, after all we must coexist or we will both fall. Dear soul within me, all I ask is that you forgive me for all I have done. I know it wasn't easy to put up with me, no it was the opposite of fun. But I need you now more then ever, my friends are few but our heart is clever, we will endeavor together. Come whatever we shall face all odds and stand up tall and laugh in the face of gods. I will make you proud somehow... someway... one day very soon I can't keep pondering over this unrelenting doom. The vicious madness, the overwhelming sadness and the voices in my head everyone wants me dead but I will not give into there wishes. We will survive even if the only one left fighting is me I will fight by my side. Dear person who I have become.... will I ever come to forgive me?