The Perfect Gift

God gave me a gift & I took it for granted. He gave me the most Perfect woman, on this whole entire planet. I was in awe of her She was one of a kind. It was hard to believe That she was mine. She had beauty, brains & is a wonderful mother. Once I laid eyes on her I could never love another. She was my strength When I was weak. She was my voice When I couldn't speak. She was my sight When couldn't see My Leesah, My Leesah Was everything to me. I took her for granted I stomped on her heart. I refused her love Now we are apart. I never listened to her When she had something to say. I'd say, "Tell me later" & be on my way. She wanted attention But I was too much into myself. Because of my selfish ways She's now with someone else. I never hugged her Rarely told her I love her. We stayed in the same house But rarely thought of her. I had my on issues So I ignored her attempts at love. Because it was all about me Me is all I thought of. She talked about God & how he keeps her in his grace I'd say "I'm watching the game, let me have my space" She was always going to be here That's what I believed. Imagine my shock When she told me to leave. I left & then looked up to the sky With tears in my eyes I screamed, "Why God Why" I heard a voice that was deep that answered my cries It sounded quite angry, to my surprise ***** He said: You squandered the gift That I gave you Now you have the nerve To ask me to save you. You are just mad Because you'll be by yourself. You did this take the blame It's not on anyone else I gave you a woman Who was my pride & joy But you treated her like An old disguarded toy. You ignored her When she wanted to talk about me. Now you want her back But I'll refuse you plea. You were so selfish & mean So I let her go. I'm sorry to tell you My answer is no. ***** Now I'm without My Leesah The love of my life. The perfect woman The perfect wife. I lost her forever Now I'm on my own. I think of her quite often When I'm alone. I wonder how she's doing Does she miss me too? I doubt that she does After all I put her through. I'll live with this failure & I hope I'll recover. Forever & Ever I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER. I Love You Leesah! ***** ~Author's Note~ I'm moving on now, no more poems about My Leesah. I used this platform, as a way to vent about my loss. Now it's time for Robert Cathey to live again. She's moved on, I need to too. Thank you all for reading my thoughts. I truly appreciate it. Thank you all.