The One To Blame

A long road this has been Between you and me Back and forth again and again Thought we were meant to be Sure there wasn't anything we couldn't get thru We'd been thru hell, but our love held strong Finally found the courage to say I do But that didn't even last a year long Now it's all coming to end And I'm trying to wrap my head and heart around it all Realizing I can't even be your friend Fighting the urge to call Knowing this time things are different than they were in the past And yes I know I'm mostly to blame But for us this time is the last Things won't ever be the same You've finally had all you can take And I guess deep down I knew this day would come The hurt I'm feeling you think is fake Starting to feel the way you have for so long, but only some Can't believe you got thru four years of this I couldn't have done it if I'd tried Realizing just how much I caused myself to miss In writing this I even cried Letting all the hateful things you said replay Guess in a way I deserved that much Trying not to let it all get to me today Thinking back to your smile and touch All those things at one point we once shared Isn't the easiest thing for me to do I've pushed you to the point you no longer cared And after everything I put you thru Turns out I was the one who lost it all Now in this place and in this time Into your memories and thoughts of you I fall Writing just one more rhyme Wishing these thoughts would go away But instead they stay with me Wondering what it might've been like if I could go back And make all my wrongs right But I'll just add this one to the pack Hoping I can find a way to sleep thru the night Without these thoughts keeping me awake Cuz I know there's no way to change things now My writing, these thoughts and feelings....something I just can't fake Even if I knew how My feelings for you As complicated as they may be I know this is something I have to do And there's no one to blame but me But you'll forever have a place in my heart I guess that I really already knew No matter how long we're apart I will always have a love for you!!!