The One Thing I Will Always Own, But Then I Don'T

It’s confusing All of the voices in my head It’s like I don’t know who I am anymore I’m not me And I’m defiantly not the people in here I’ve disappeared Yet… I haven’t because every day I look through someone else’s eyes Because I have been unwound so many times Yet I still go on I have seen life I have seen death I have died, and that’s saying something I can’t remember how to speak How to taste or how to smell I can only remember how to think But that’s not doing me too well Considering I can’t remember how to yell How to say IM STILL HERE And ask my parents to undo it But they are probably dead and gone too Unlike you Or me Or whoever this person may be So I get no choice in the matter Because I have memories too Even if I am missing some of them I remember my sixth birthday Wetting my pants on the bouncy house, And saying it was sprite I spilled, But my mother new better She swept me away And saved the day By getting me a new pair of pants I remember The first girl I kissed How she tasted on my lips And that time that I danced with her With no music playing But the worst of all Is that I can’t remember her face She had a button nose And long blond hair Beautiful green eyes And a serious stare But when I try to put it together And trust me I do try I lose myself in the thought And begin to try and cry But I can’t remember how The least I can get out is a sigh Because I don’t control myself anymore Because it’s not me And I don’t control how to cry The other people in here Don’t care about her like I do They don’t remember how she pleaded With my parents to keep me alive Saying she could help me do better in school As if I was a horrible student But I don’t remember my grades Cause I’ve lost that part of my brain I also can’t feel the rain On my shoulders from that night With someone But who I can’t remember That was cut out too