The Monster In the Room

As I sit in the corner Of this darkened room Staring in horror At the door With the pounding Ringing in my ears Waiting for the monster To finally break free from it's cage And it's shackles and chains A monster I've held back For years and years Praying I don't slip This rage inside of me I'll never be able to explain Trying to forget about the pain The uncertainty, the fear That the ones that I hold dear My friends, my family They'll finally see my greatest fear The fear of never being good enough Being always below the bar These mind games I can no longer take Because I'm about to break This rage inside me The monster that no one can see I'll try my hardest Never to let it free But these games and these lies The keep twisting my heart I'm about to fall apart Because these feelings I've been trying to bury so deep Keep clawing themselves up Trying to get out of this black hole That used to be called my soul That soul that was crushed and bruised That no longer can be used The fear of never being good enough Rises to the back of my throat As I sit in the corner Choking and sputtering on this fear Staring at the door in horror Waiting for the monster To break into the room Then I look in the mirror And see the monster staring back at me