The Mistake of Wondering If.. Enjoy

tick tick tick tick.. i watch as the clock slowly hits three my body starts to trimble knowing that your about to walk in the door.. wondering if you will happy to see a face from your past remembering not only the bad but the good times we shared. Hoping i get that lasting kiss instead of that stare of looking into space wondering where you are.. reaching out to hug me and not to reach for the door to open it and tell me to leave ... i know you have a family and i cant come betwwen that but i dont see anything wrong with us trying... you say everybody out of town and will bne back any minutes well lets see what happens before they make.. am i moving too fast or should i even be moving in this direction at all? didnt really think this through before i came thought maybe you would welcome me with open arms and act as if nothing happened or if you wouldnt remember and we would start over.. i deserve this treatment after the pain and trauma i caused but i was wondering if i was to kiss you one last time would the passion of you once being in love with me was still there.. wondering if you were to wrap me in your arms would you hesitate to let me go. knowing is wrong to say but the family you share with her should be mine you should wake up to my breakfast and dinner and maybe dessert if thats what you want sure i didnt know how to treat you when i had you but now that i had the chance to practice with many i think i have this house wife and family thing down packed. sure it might cause you one broken home but im here to rescue you and start to build a new one......