The Masochist and the Sadist

(His Version of The Sadist and The Masochist) Oh, a masochist what a fitting partner or should I say plaything for a sadist, but by bringing you into this world I knew that a part of you would soon cease to exist I am a sadist maybe the SADIST of sadists, so you see, I love to screw with other’s emotions it’s so much fun for me And you my little masochist you’re not what you think that you are, you’re much too pure and sweet to ever go beyond the chains, to what lies beyond, oh you’ll never go that far I do enjoy causing pain to others I must admit it does give me a thrill, and the sad part is I could care less how it makes them feel I love the sound of my master name as they cry out within, begging me for more punishment than I already have placed them in You my love you never knew this sordid version of me, I never let him out back then I guess I didn’t want for you to see Maybe then I was ashamed and believed that you could never accept this side of me, so I pushed his spirit down deep into the pit of darkness that resided inside of me But now I am no longer ashamed it’s his turn to parade around, and deal the punishment he has longed for so many years now I want you to know I turned into him because I had no other way to deal, I had lost all that had ever meant anything to me, the light that once made me heal I couldn’t be like him I couldn’t let his pain eat me up from within, so I let the master out and vowed to enjoy his reign of sin I did become a heartless monster and I guess I figured why not? I had everything I had ever wanted in my life until it all came to a halt I knew this was my true path, my unwanted destiny, for I knew I could never truly be happy life just wouldn’t allow that to be I didn’t care about being nice anymore because what did it ever bring to me? A girl that I loved more than anything but couldn’t have? Yeah, being nice wasn’t right for me Years ago, long before you I was tainted by another that had chosen this life; she was a sadist that wanted to teach me her ways, so I became the masochist that night I had been stomped on and pushed around for the most of my life, so when she degraded me this way, I knew I didn’t want this side I no longer wished to be the masochist in this play, I wanted the role of punisher I guess that you could say So yes, that night I got more than I ever bargained for, I was led into the darkness, but I found so much more All of the disappointment, the anger, the path that was laid out for me, it was mine for the taking now I could be the king The king of hurt, the king of emotional abuse, doing unto others before they can do unto you I love the taste of the power as it slides down my throat, knowing that they bow down to me it’s almost too much I know I wish sometimes too that I would have known you way back when, so that I could have been shown love at a younger age instead of being led into sin But if you would have known me then you would probably hate me now, because I wasn’t the man that I was to you then, you changed me somehow You really are the epitome of a masochist, so compliant, so trusting, so sweet, and innocent But my love to me that is something I never wished for you to be, I only wanted to love you, I never wished for you to see that side of me Because you brought the good out of me with your kindness, your light, and oh my love please know that I tried so hard to fight To fight the demons that I lived with emotionally every day, and knowing deep in my heart you’re the only one that could keep them away But once we ended so did the life, I once believed that I could have, so I let the darkness creep into my soul and now here stands a different man A man that did what he had to do just so that he could survive, he cut off all emotions and deemed to bring others demise I didn’t wish to feel anything anymore, for anyone, I had my taste of true love and now I was done If the pain I endured over losing you was something that I had to live with for the rest of my life, I just couldn’t do it, there was no way that I could survive So instead of feeling pain I pushed that onto someone else, I love the feeling of knowing they’re hurt it brings pleasure to myself See this is the only way that I can now function, that I can heal, by punishing others for the predicament I was dealt, the love I am no longer allowed to feel I escaped this life in the end eventually, I would like to say that I came to the decision on my own but then I would be lying I was the emotional sadist and oh how I reveled in the part, but my love you were never dark enough to see that side, you had too kind of a heart And I know that you love me and that for me you would do anything, you would bring yourself down to my level and grovel at my feet And I know that you question yourself how could you feel this way? My love you’re not a masochist deep within, you’re just a girl in love with a sadist that loves to play.