The Man In Red

i feel true in prayer when i say gods name , but i have this one intruder who invades my dreams , i feel hypnotized and paralyzed as these years go on , i feel truly raped in my mind , this is a trap of ongoing circle of sleep paralysis , i get told to endure all this pain , this is not god that tests , this is satan trying to claim my death , pushing me on a ledge to no further , i once heard a preacher say god took my loved one for his own favor , but such things i refuse to believe, a preacher as usual twisting true words , considering the man in red is the one who murders