The Kreutzer Sonata

(In 1807, Beethoven wrote a piano/violin piece with this title. Count Leo Tolstoy followed in 1890, with a short novel of the same name, in which he argued that matrimony can never work.) What is a marriage? A fusion, or a tether? Two very different creatures, yoked together? I was a piano, you a violin: I, solid, calming, you, discordant, thin, and laced with bitterness. I was your base, and you provided brio, flourish, grace. A lacewing trapped inside a window frame, yet driven by one blind, unchanging aim, you struggled up until, played out, defeated, you fluttered down again, debased, depleted. A war's a love affair, and love's a war. We're so inept - or what's a heaven for? A nest of wasps, my grievances boiled over - but could there ever be a vita nuova? We never learned. I hammered pointlessly, while you abraded. Why could we not see? And so I played it stately, sad, no frills, while you kept up your repetitions, trills and variations. Hovering and wary, you shunned my structures. Ever more contrary, you coiled and squirmed in spasms both continuous, spontaneous, free-wheeling, lithe and sinuous. It seemed to me the harmony had gone: we sang on, yes, but each a separate song. Two butterflies together, intertwined, we tangled on the same, but different, line.