The Hole In My Soul
I dug a hole in the backyard last night.
When I started digging I was thinking about death
Perhaps I would just lie down and die,
But then I realized it was not for dying but for living.
It was designed to remove the cancer from my soul
It was a gold mine… destined to be excavated by me
So I took off my clothes and rubbed myself down with gasoline.
I was hard and lean and if I stood just right in that pit I could feel the ashes
I lit my hair on fire and watched it burn
I had no fear.
Not even a tattooed tear for I new it was meant to heal.
As the flames got closer I lowered myself to the ground
And took on a depreciated yoga pose that would heal my soul
Crouching fool
Squatting idiot
Something more irreverent than Judas standing before the cross
As the daylight broke over my dreams I realized that I was paralyzed
A heliograph in the sky stared down on me
Daring me to look back.
Blind yourself and wrap yourself in barbed wire.
Walk down the hall sideways
Know no fear
Heal thyself fool.
I will do this every night, night after night,
Until I find the truth.
This is the end and I have no place else to go.
It is the last place to measure out my life.
Keep digging
Or stop?
That is the question they ask all the losers.
Me I am going to keep on digging
Because this hole is all I have.
As published in the Taj Mahal Review Vol.2, Number 2, DEC 2013
Copyright © Stephen Kilmer | Year Posted 2013
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