The Feeling

I never thought my days would lose all their color or the brightness would fade from my smile. But after awhile... I got scared when you got close to me. I didnt see my feelings for what they ought to be... Why?! All because I was afraid of a harsh reality. But now I cry... Why!! I realize ... Only now What I've done and how... But what can I do now? I didn't think it would bother me like it did you. But.... that was wrong too. Never thought seeing you touch her would make me feel so sick. Or make my breath so thick... I can't breathe without strain. As those images repeat in my brain... What do I do about the pain? I guess I just watch this game... And take it because I deserve this torture. All because I did the same horror.... I'm sorry.... But it will never be.. enough...