The Emptiness Inside Me

Only I know the emptiness inside me. For I wear the mask of sanity not for myself but for those around me. If only they knew how frightening it was to be me. Living inside myself is like living inside a cage. A cage that bears no key. I scream but no one can hear me. I cry but no one can see my tears. My pain is invisible to all that know me. I have become a master of my own emotions. Just once I wish someone could see through me. But the reality is that people don't want to deal with your pain. They have their own issues to deal with. So the next time you tell someone that you are ok. Remember this... That is exactly what they want to hear. It is you and only you that can find the key and open the cage. Do you want to live or die? It is up to you. I have lived inside my cage for most of my life. But now I want to live. I found my key and at first I was afraid to leave. Leaving was scary but death was worse. Occasionally I go back to my cave because it is my comfort zone. I need that sense of security for some reason. I am finding out that I am stronger than I thought. There just may be a purpose for me in this thing we call life. I don't know but I'm willing to find out. Fear was my worst enemy and so was myself. I can no longer let them rule my life. For now instead of killing me they will make me stronger.