The Dream

By the time I finished highschool, my top highest dream that I wanted to accomplish before any of my other so many dreams Was To become a nun I wanted to be holy of the holiest Wearing my long attire, all covered up I wanted to be like the nuns in my highschool I wanted to only focus on God, devoted to Him only I wanted to live in a convent, with other sisters After I finished highschool I visited a convent in Karen and I remember standing there by the gate imagining myself living there one day After I finished highschool, I also did a lot of volunteering and charity work in children's homes -Because I knew most of my work as a nun would be serving But after a while, the little pocket money I had saved in highschool run out and so I couldn't visit all these places that I felt I was called to be So I stayed home as I waited for my university acceptance And that's when I reconnected with a friend from primary school And she had stories that made my nun dream a hallucination She told me of her first sex which was on the couch in her sister's house She talked in details of the feels and fills of sex that left my innocent curious mind running wild She talked of the blood stain on the couch and the arms that held her tight as she became a woman And from there, all I wanted to be was that girl From that sunny day under a tree where we girls talked for hours, my dream changed.