The Diagnosis

I was diagnosed with cancer today and my doctor sadly turned his head as he walked away. The usual speech about chemo was read and then radiation was discussed as he as a doctor was lead. When he was done, he looked at me and said well honey in the days ahead there will be more information to come. He asked, How do you feel about what I just said? I smiled at him and said, Well Doc; I don't have an answer for that right off the top of my head. We stand a chance if we start real soon, but know that at this stage there is a a little gloom. In that moment fear left my mind and I started to for once think about time. Time with my family and time for a bucket list but most of all I felt there was no time for the things I had already missed. I shook his hand and thanked him for his care and I left the office with that thousand yard stare. So much to do and so much to say but for me it would not be today. Today I will go the ice cream shop and eat that that thousand calorie banana boat my doc called slop. Then to the ocean where childhood grew and fish like crazy before the tide withdrew. I made my mind up I would not fall apart and that today is when my life would have a brand new start.