The Burden I Had To Bare

I didn't wanna go to sleep, Mommy where are you? My heart racing as I clenched my covers trying not to fall asleep, I gasped at the slightest sound, I didn't want to be alone with the Beast, The thought of what he did to me, It made my stomach ache in pain, The sick mind of someone I was suppose to trust with my life, Everyday I screamed inside for help, I couldn't tell anyone ,I didn't Know how, I gulped all my despair away like it was never there. Later we moved away but it was the same, Another Savage beast, Mommy was never there ,Working hard but blinded by my reality. I created a world unknown to everyone, A dream world I could lose myself In, The Savage Beast touch took every speck of innocence that was left in me. At age nine I had to be strong ,I had to grow up, The hurt I bore for all these years made me trap myself in a bubble, I isolated myself from the world ,trying to lose myself in the crowd, I locked myself in my room all the time,letting the music help me cope. It helped but this reality was always there, a reason why I lost Trust, Trust in anyone who claimed they loved me. I was alone in this battle,I didn't want the world to know, I didn't want her to know, I loved her and just wanted her to be happy, But she lived with these Savages who was heartless and sick, I kept these cries inside all my life. And now I can't anymore Keep this despair inside ,I wanna be free to live my life These skeletons will always be in my closets haunting me each day but in time I will be ok, I hope...