The Battle Within Myself

There's a battle within myself between who I was, and what I aspire to be, I'm lost in the echoes of my soul, darkness surrounding me, how will I ever be free? Sometimes, I'm scared to keep searching, I'm afraid of what I'll find, My memories of heartache and past mistakes still etched within my mind This battle within myself weighs upon my heart, I'm searching for a new beginning but where do I even start? Do I start with the pain that haunts me like a ghost? Forgiving others for what they have done, pain inflicted from the ones I care about the most, My mind is willing but my heart isn't ready, Take a deep breathe and keep your thoughts steady Trying to defeat the things eating me alive inside, I need to admit that I'm broken and let go of my foolish pride, How do you move on from memories holding you back? They flood me like a song on a broken record track, Why am I blind to the light I'm searching for? I feel so lost as my tears start to pour There's a battle within myself remembering the good things I've done, Pushing away the clouds and embracing the sun, Cherishing the blessings bestowed upon my life, Letting go of bitterness, anger, hurt, and strife, I look into the eyes of my children and see the innocence within their heart, Finding my clarity and I realize where I start There's a battle within myself that I'm winning today, My path becomes clearer as I make a new way, Is it ever going to be easy? No I'm afraid that it's not, Is that an excuse to give in and stop?