The Askance Chapter 4 Part 4a

In The Realities Of Despair Anxiety has kept me awake since many a night Though exhausted as I am, I’m unable still to sleep Corners of my house hasn’t a darkness no more to hide Is there only defiance for a tormented heart to weep? I sat rooted in trance, believing like never before Desperately in need to return to the ancient reality Yet, little by little it all seems fading to recall Can I not yearn for simply a touch of unfounded tranquility? And I forget all there is which matter most I earnfully forget away the need to ensave Alkaiya In hope to achieve for The Ancients to come as close For any price, I would even sell and leave my soul afar I wondered and wandered a little while Drinking away for past several nights in a routine row Still, sleep isn’t to embrace wholesomely somehow How much more of this pain must I unwillingly enfold Till finally, I took a turn to fall drastically ill So terribly serious to the sheering point of near death And so, the moment came when to think my fate was seal Tranquility befalls at the very thought of my last of breath {The night was a distant to be wearily dark Not even the heavy downpour can cleanse away the burden heart Drenching both Alkaiya and me to the very bones Of yet only darkness I see and the merciless cold to suffer alone With her still unconscious in my arms, I was in agony By the Gods, she need never suffer in this unjustly misery I held on to her, knowing I never will want to let go And I swore if its death she is bound to face, I would follow Be it time spent in reality that I have nothing else but her in my mind Be it she sleeps whereas I’m to suffer with her in my wakeful time I know somewhere deep inside I’ve developed a love Some liking unrecognisable yet felt meaningful with a deepen worth Humans’ thought as Gods is still mortals lesser of Gods Given accordance, we all are breed to how we are taught In the mortal world, I knew how easily love could fall to place Yet in this Ancient world, love is to remain with eternity to race And I knew in my moment, I could never see her again with partnered eyes In my one moment, it was Ei-rian and her between truth and lies Though with her eyes enclose, she was breathing soundly still Holding on to my amulet, isn’t there obscurity to be real? With Heaven’s unkind I will sell my soul to have her save Yet… only the sorrowful rain has pitied my act of faith