Tears Won'T Come

At some point every day, I want to curl up in a ball and cry... but tears won't come. I feel my chest grow tight, like an invisible rubber band has been placed around my heart. Fear and dread descend upon me like a veil of darkness... but tears won't come. My hands shake and my legs become restless. Anxiety plagues me, laughing at the double dose of medication I swallowed earlier today. A cluster headache begins to form in my left temple. Hopelessness transforms into anger... for tears won't come. I lock the doors and close the curtains, muting the ringer on my telephone. My dogs attempt to comfort me as I lie down and cover my throbbing eyes... still tears won't come. I cannot remember the last time tears flowed from the dams of my eyes. I know they are there, beyond concrete walls of insecurity. and yet... the tears won't come.