Tears Are Not Allowed
When my father died, I could not cry
He never taught me how
To unleash and rinse the pain inside
To roll where agony ploughed
I learnt from, to be a man
Tears are not allowed.
I wanted to understand his death, my
Emptiness, and lack of will
My young distrust of randomness
For my invulnerable hero
How could it be that this thing got him still
And why should I build again
Sand castles for sudden cycles of rain?
The house was dark without his voice
Setting Shakespearian lines aflame
In my ancestral history he taught me to rejoice
When many hid their face in shame
O but if only he had me prepared
And made sample just a tear
When I quivered before his scolding there
I would have wept away so much
In the brutal blistering of years
I would have been refreshed again to touch
The part of me that hidden cares
It would have balmed me for his death
Comforted me from love's regret
But in a man, tears are not allowed.
Copyright © David Smalling | Year Posted 2012
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