Survival Is

SURVIVAL is feeling there is no point in getting up in the morning showering getting dressed, what is the bloody point but know that you have to. is suppressing that nagging tickly cough, just in case. Cannot go coughing and sneezing, not now that could mark the beginning of the end hypochondria is slowly creeping in. is maintaining a healthy eating and exercise habit also remembering to take those prescribed tablets you need to stay in good health, more so now going into hospital could be hell. is sanitising, to obsessive proportions, hands, worktops, door handles, groceries, taps everything bleached, scrubbed, sprayed, is creating daily routines and rituals to pass time Or else, yesterday, today, tomorrow will be the same tedium would probably send me insane. is looking forward to the daily walk in the park the air is fresher, trees and flowers vibrant squirrels play hide and seek - or so I tell myself. is looking forward to seeing other people being aware of physical distance, but, enjoying the friendliness of a smile, a nod, a hello. is knowing that you must compete to get food midnight on the computer in the online queue to survive this is what you need to do. Is not absorbing too much information about the virus news of the devastation, of the death and destruction hearing of the rising numbers of the daily death toll seeing images victims and their who they’ve left behind. Instead, finding time and space for distraction, relaxation sharing how we are feeling: sometimes anger sometimes fear, sometimes grief, sometimes gratitude because I am alive and doing Okay.