Suicide Poem

Dear me I miss my grandma so bad Shes the best thing I ever had And now she can be free Of all the pain And now im stuck goin insaine I wish I could committee suicide Just end it all My heart and soul has died Im so depressed I just sit and ball Shes indebted in my head And I want to be dead I want the hurt to go away And yes I do pray What do I do Take pills Cut If only I knew Why I get the tremors and the chills No one knows and gets how this really feels But If they did they would lock me up and throw away the key But maybe that wouldn’t be so bad for me I just know That I feel so low Nothing is going right It’s a constant fight A battle every minute And I wish I was in it to win it They say I am strong Well they are wrong Im so not Its just something they are taught To say Like oh I forgot I want to die Yeah right All I do is wonder and cry Im losing this fight I might as well fry How long does this have to go on How long do I suffer Where the **** do I belong And when do I start to get tougher I love my dogs so much and my mom That is the only reason I stick around I have 1 true friend and at times I think I bring him down With all my depression and whinning So when is the perfect timming To end this ***** I don’t know yet But its getting closer I can feel it But I will probably fail at that too again I bet I DONT FEEL SO BAD ANYMORE BUT THERE ARE STILL DAYS I DO FEEL LIKE THIS MY BIPOLAR U KNOW HOW IT IS