Suicide Note

I'm writing you this to let you know how disgusted I am of self I'm a rebel so it's time I rebelled against you, repel out of your hands if I stand in you it's sinking sand, foreign land, I don't belong here nor to you, your hold on me is mentally emotionally and spiritually abusing me, can't you see what you're doing to me. I feel trapped I'm captured in the sanctity of my own mind I need freedom  but...you won't let me leave on my own free will we been threw hell and back you live in me I die in you, your hard to kill. How does it feel! knowing you have total control in this world of me, you thought  you could hold me down keep me grounded, but let this note be a  reminder I shall be set free from bondage, since my flesh is the only thing you can influence within me...we'll see what kinda dominion you have when kill the old and Christ Jesus resurrects me.