Suffocate

Everyday I die a little more inside, But my heart is on my sleeve, So tears that pour from it drip, Until I’m gasping for air, I’m drowning As life moves forward Im left searching through memories Self analyzing, criticizing, profiling Demoralized by how I got here. Who was I? Who did I let ruin my life? Anxiety and depression I had never met Yet somehow they became all I knew. I’ve awaken but to what reality? Nightmares have became real Happiness is all but a dream. When I shut my eyes all I see is you. But when they open the emptiness of the world around me closes in, I can’t breathe.