Suffer Unto Me

how many times have you woken up to reach for the bottle how many times have you thought today is the day sometimes i don't even know what im doing every path leads me to nowhere still i have no direction in life but does not society say that by now i should i wish i could just run away but i know that once i get there i will only have to run away again for it is in me this suffering and pain this hate and loss and feelings of failure i am unable to imagine my epitaph the seeds of my soul have yet to flower will they ever or are they destined to rot like me i cannot even hide inside myself anymore though my intentions are pure i have lost