Strip Me

Strip me... As you do, Youre claiming everything that I am Youre seeing it all Not just the physical; The bruises, The scars, The imperfections, (Even though thats just as hard), But youre seeing what makes me Who I am; Youre stripping away layers of hurt And pain in many areas; Youre touching raw spots. As you do this; Youre stripping me emotionally; Im letting you inside By letting you see my body; Im saying I want you everywhere; Inside and out; I want you to soothe The unsoothable parts Im letting you feel me, Touch me, Do whatever you want... Ive never known that kind of intimacy; On the inside Im trembling; Im so afraid Youre going to see something You dont like, Or dont want, And that terrifies me; The fact that you could hate something about me And that could be a reason To leave me... I feel so insecure And I dont like it at all; For your sake as much as mine. I want you so badly, I want to let you in, Cuz I love you so much, And youre the only person I would let do this. But I freeze up sometimes; I dont know what to say, I dont know how to feel; Im just paralyzed with fear Of rejection. I hate that I didnt go all the way for you; I feel like I don’t give you everything I want to; And it sucks, like I don’t feel good enough And that you almost resent that Im sorry, Baby for not giving it all But it takes time I guess... I dont know; I want so bad to let you 'strip me' Maybe next time I wont be so scared; Its not you Im scared of; Its me; Whats going on in my head, That I cant even explain; Im scared Im not good enough For you, And for myself... That sounds messed up, And again, I hate that Im scared, Scared of putting myself out in the open Completely like that... It takes more courage than I have; Maybe I can get that courage from you... I want to... I know I can... I will...