Still Here

I wake up, Feel the heat of your body beside me, My heart beats You are here. I stir, Reach out to the warmth That was you Your smell lingers , Coffee and toast fill the air. My heart beats You are here. I open my eyes , Slide my hand into a new coldness. Wet on my pillow, Screams from my mind, Remembering-you are gone. I am still here. I turn my face from the day Wrapped in shrouds, Just waiting for someone To nail down the lid. Why should my heart beat? Without you I don’t feel-here. I am aroused, Feel a force from within breaking free. I beat the air with my fists. Pound out my hurt, Curse your name You- you- oh why why Did you go and leave me Still here. I awake, Birds sing. It’s a new day. The empty space beside me now familiar. You are gone Yet once again my heart beats -Still here-