Statement of Mind

Statement of mind Frightening awareness of everything that is lost An abundant memory of mistakes that cost A charade of a life that is and what turned to dust Chamber music playing in the mind as an audience hushed The truth of your reality is about to be played in the theatre rushed Deliver me and protect me under this house then teach to be crushed I go silently about my business in my mind till interruption pushed Awareness of a futile world becomes my strain as I lie on the cusp Heaven and hell is a place on earth but tired of both I mistrust Rotting leaves on the muddy ground cover the dead like a crust Skeletons below us reminds me that love once had was that so just Believe me when I say not one sunrise I will awake encouraged with trust If hell is a place in the mind then I have been there and scarred and crossed My theory is that once given you have for eternity but be careful of pretty paintings that you brushed