Soulseeker

I'm on a verge of life's defining moment. I feel it in my bones. In my head, like a stones, My thoughts collide I'm afraid, I shake, What decision should I make... I touch my head, I hear sound, all around, a doubt, a fear, that is what I constantly hear. I hate night, when, I'm alone, then, I'm prone, to cancel my decision, to f*** up my vision, because I'm searching for an easy way out, for a reason to all go south. Not this time, this time no matter how deep I go, Ill will keep my ego, Or am I? Its a freaking war, battle on each part of my body, from calm surface, to the very very scary core. Will I survive, Will I burn out, or will to abyss I terrifyingly dive, There are so many things that can go wrong, maybe Ill come too early, because my footsteps are inch too long, maybe my heart will suddenly stop to bong, or maybe I'm gonna crack because I'm not that strong. Weight is on my back, But I'm gonna try, Should I continue explaining why?