Soul Tears

It washed over me like a wave feelings of sadness, I could not evade. I tried to shake it, and found I could not, entrenched in my soul, tied tight,like a knot! Where these feelings came from, I do not know... The tears flowing freely, it was hard not to show. My eyes filled with tears, that I could not stop. Caught up in my years, feeling I would drop. I knew I had to go on, with my task at hand, but found it hard to do, in the sadness land. I wiped my tears, put away my tools. My mind was gears, and I felt like a fool. I am usually strong, when it comes to things. But something went wrong, and tugged my heart strings. It took a long time, to shake the feeling, it brought up emotions. That sent me reeling! Was it hidden things, that set me off? Or was it something else, that made my soul cough? This was written while I was working at "Joe's Place",an adult daycare center,for elders with Alzheimer's and dementia.I was painting door frames at the time in the dementia room,and they had that "one flew over the cookoo's nest" music playing... and after an hour and a half..... I LOST IT!!! I thought I was strong enough to handle it, but I was wrong..... Does this make me a weak man? I think not! I guess it just shows that I am human, have feelings.... And I care!!!