Soul Crushed

When u think of me and how I've been.... My soul has been dead, since that very night< you decided to leave me without a fight. you left me in this world of mine, it has no sunset nor sunrise there is but only one season that exists< so where ever you lay your head, with the family that you chose instead. And you contemplate on how I've been. Cold, dark and gloomy soul dead like day and night you love me < you build me up only to break me down and then you try to console me. why are you doing this to me? I ask... and you answer slowly , I love you I've never felt this way again you crush me slowly.... its in epic battle I will lose. , But I am drawn to you... Why do I allow, all I want is you . But yet again you choose to crush me slowly My Love for you it is a shame. what was once Beautiful only ashes remain. And I rise up to fight again, for the undeniable truth that you will win too yet again crush me slowly. I continue to fail but all I want is you. But you trample on my heart and soul like It means nothing to you. Again you crush me slowly.... you tell me “do whats best for you” again you crush me slowly. Its like your blind to all I am. I see you and you see friend ,and yet again you crush me slowly... Soul Crushed....