Sorry Mom

I'm sorry mom but I had to go I'm sorry it hurts I know I'm sorry mom but death was calling my name I'm sorry it was all my fault, I'm to blame I'm sorry mom that I had to leave you so soon Don't forget that I'm always going to be smiling down on you, at night, dawn, at noon I'm sorry mom but my body couldn't take much more Too many sleepless nights I was crawled up slowing dying on the floor I'm sorry mom but everyday it was hard to breath, felt my chest closing up on me And now I'm laying in this black cold coffin wondering how could this be I know I'm not there physically but I'm always there spiritually I'm sorry mom I love you so much my sweetness But there was so much pain in me, every inch of my body the deepness I had to put the gun to my heart to get away But here im so free, away