Some Thoughts From Me To You

I sit here in this lonely room and what was once my life now causes my gloom because I want to still be with you the walls slowly are closing in I think about the years that have past yet I don't know just where to begin when I close my eyes I still can se your face if I listen very closely I can hear your voice say my name but when I open my eyes reality once again sets in and your still not here with your arms holding me tight just like my days past it's another lonely night I look for you everywhere I go I search faces yet I still don't know where you are today or even if you are okay the not knowing is killing me more with each passing day family and friends try to help me get through but the only one to stop my pain is you I remember so much about you and me people are amazed by just how much yet remembering what we had although so sweet don't give me back your touch I try not to get my hopes of you and I being one again to high because just like many others life hasn't been so kind but I believe in what I feel in my bones, soul and heart that somehow we are connected and never should have been torn apart I have to believe this cause what else do I have to do but sit here day after day and remember you only thing is it would pain me deeply to find out that for all this time you had felt the same way for me as I do for you see I wouldn't wish the pain of not having your true one and only on anyone, any day it makes life so hard to get through so see I need to find you and make everything very clear that I just don't want you I really do need you here and if the day does come when we can see each other again after all these years believe me when I say there will be a lot of tears one final thought from me to you I need you to know that I didn't know then I've always been deeply and hopelessly in love with you and I never want this feeling to end or hide it from the world again I know it's taken a long time for these feelings to be said yet this is all so very true before I could really find out what being "in love" was it took me all these years to find out what being "in love" wasn't and what it wasn't was not having you here still