So This Is Finally It

So this is finally it? It is in this moment that I will choose to use or to quit. Do I remember or do I choose instead to again forget. For so long you have been the direct cause for so much of my pain, and yet I still cling to you like an infant to its' mother. So completely terrified of the world just beyond her grasp. A decade ago I was converted by your power, I have since then been one of your most devoted followers. The back alley bible is what you preach. A gospel so alluring that there is no barrier you can't cross, No soul soul out of your reach.