So Lost

So I am worried my thoughts are hurried how do I make them all stop? Relaxation is dreaming stress is prevailing My body slowly falls apart I fear I’m dying without even trying Has it all been for not? Why do I want this? Why do I need this? What have I got? I retreat from my failures too scared to greet them at my front door I question my meaning Where is the answer? What do you do when all your dreams are lost? Carry on existing but not really living Force a smile on my face? I’m no good at searching as I was always yearning for what is gone I knew it would not be easy but why is it so hard? I’m feeling so lost