So Do I

Piles of poetry yet to come falling in the fingers of the readers Scroll through my lines as much as your heart and mind eagers Remorse and anguish is what I feed on when I sin senselessly Did you ever once forgive all my sins in the past, the Lord Almighty? So, what am I supposed to do with my broken apart heart? Shame on you and I for departing in our abominable ways So, what now? Am I alone with loneliness and you with others around from the start? Have you no heart? Haven't you got the clue that I'm going through those rollercoaster days I'm sorry.. Yeah !! I'm sorry..... Yeah !! I'm so so sorry... Yeeeahh..ooooh oh oh... I'm so so sorry... Sis... I'm sorry... Bro... Momma, daddy... Please forgive me... So should I forgive myself I love you So do I... Sick of you So am I... You long for God So do I, He's my protecting rod Suck it up, Dave Behave and be brave Embrace the love of God All I must do is accept and nod No more crying...don't you sob Soon you'll be flying...with money in your pocket and you'll have a real awesome job - So can You, Rob So can I, yessery bob I'm sorry.. Yeah !! I'm sorry..... Yeah !! I'm so so sorry... Yeeeahh..ooooh oh oh... I'm so so sorry... Sis... I'm sorry... Bro... Momma, daddy... Please forgive me... So should I forgive myself I love you So do I... Sick of you So am I... You long for love, my dove So do I, I had enough of hate...and what it's made of Shards of my heart Tell me not to break apart Shards of my brain Tell me not to jump off the train... I want my sanity back...somehow... I want my reality on track...but how?? How?? How? Ow...wowaaahhhh How can you love me, Lord - When I was of chaos and not of accord? How can you forgive me, friend - When I have neglected you from the beginning to end? I'm sorry for the hurt I put on you I'm sorry for the pain I pressed upon you too I'm sorry for the guilt I blamed on you Darling, you love me still, despite all the wrong I've committed and aimed at you; you gave me affection anew and I exchange that to you... I owe you my life, so don't say that's not true because it is to be so that I'm in the same boat as you, buddy boo You say you need me and my friendship I say "So do I, but first I must get a grip...on myself before in the lukewarm water I dip!" I'm sorry.. Yeah !! I'm sorry..... Yeah !! I'm so so sorry... Yeeeahh..ooooh oh oh... I'm so so sorry... Sis... I'm sorry... Bro... Momma, daddy... Please forgive me... So should I forgive myself I love you So do I... Sick of you So am I... You crave change in your life So do I...to stop tragedy from slitting me with its jagged knife You are sorry...I ain't sorry...He is sorry...she is sorry...we are sorry... I don't think so though Sorry for not being sorry, But have no fear or worry... Search me out like an iPhone's Safari Try with your might and soul to earn back my trust Or I might as well be an unsolved riddle and Turn to Dust I'm an unanswered math question I'm equal to 0 or undefined without mention Malice and corruption I once was, but now I'm a man of gracious consumption (doing good to others by having a serving attitude of generosity) I'm sorry.. Yeah !! I'm sorry..... Yeah !! I'm so so sorry... Yeeeahh..ooooh oh oh... I'm so so sorry... Sis... I'm sorry... Bro... Momma, daddy... Please forgive me... So should I forgive myself I love you So do I... Sick of you So am I... Do you even care to share your feelings towards my poetry? So should I share with an open heart of calamityless sad-happy I hope I can get back at you for what you've done But I won't repay evil for evil...I'll forgive and let live I hope...I mope...I helplessly scream... I weep...I sleep...I hopelessly dream... I did a real bad bad thing, Walking away from everything, for I've reduced to nothing... What's going on in my head? Not anything or anyone special...so I'm heading to bed I regret regretting I am sad of sadness, Taking advantage of me and taking over me heartlessly In the abstract abyss my soul and all is meant to be I'm sorry.. Yeah !! I'm sorry..... Yeah !! I'm so so sorry... Yeeeahh..ooooh oh oh... I'm so so sorry... Sis... I'm sorry... Bro... Momma, daddy... Please forgive me... So should I forgive myself I love you So do I... Sick of you So am I... So, do you accept me? Or do you love all except me...? I don't mind letting time unwind...in the maze, I graze for my heart's desire that ain't blind I'm probably the only one of your kind...be not mean, but kind I...remain...in...pain... Long-ing for God's heal-ing rain . . . . . . . . Sprinkle relief Upon my grief Numb and left out in the cold Dumb smart and yet so bold Feeling myself, the walking dead... Feeling myself, drunk on dread... Weave me with a pessimistic Poe smile Grieve me not, not even for a little while I feel like dying alive I feel...like a victim on the television show: "I Survived" and I, in victory, won I feel like a bee in his hive I buzz...for your attention, honey, to get what I deserve...another chance to make it up, for You've arrived undone So have I...so am I...I... So what am I to you? Lowered from the high Eye can't see my pupil, rolling wild in the seas of cloud white and sky blue Cloud 9 drops to cloud 6 You're just another brick in the wall of fame Cloud 7 needs a major fix So do I...So do I...feeling this shame without a name...hunted down like game...I'm an animal so lame...untamed and not the same as I first came into your Silent Wars, your mighty blame game