Sleeping In Forever

Don’t wake me, I’m sleeping in forever. Just let me rot and die from the inside out. I’ve given up on life. Let me bask in my heartache, let me die from this heartbreak. I just want to be alone, lock it all up inside myself. Don’t try to make me smile, if I do it’s a lie. Just leave me alone so that I can slowly die. I can’t eat. Maybe every bit of grief will disappear with every bit of me? Stuck in a prison I cannot escape. Painful memories are keeping me at bay. I am slowly drowning in this flood of empty feelings. Slowly freezing from the ice growing on my heart. I struggle with my convictions, I need an escape. Is relief at the end of this bottle? Can I make it all go away? The answer is no, nothing will do. I’m stuck here in this Hell, as I drive those I love away. I’m stuck here in my prison as I beat myself up over the past. I’m stuck here wondering how much longer everything, including myself, can last?