Situations

It's a complicated situation that I'm facing. Between broken dreams and death planning conversations. Constantly asking myself why I feel out of Gods hands into the arms of satin. Praying for life after death but deep down questioning continuation. I weary from all the back stabbing and sins and it mostly generates from my family and friends. Please lord tell me will this pain every end. Can I ever walk with you and make Amen’s? Cause only you can ever know where my soul really been. The devils getting closer and he is coming in the forms of many men. I hate to say it but I opened up the doors and let them in. They pass me the weed and beer to through off my concentration. Go to job interviews the next day say words but don't know the pronunciation. By DNA have a father but mentally there is no relation. It's sad to say it's darker by the day. It took two buildings to fall before the nation united and prayed. After the fact Mr. Bush send eighteen year old to Iraq to be living in their last days. These are my situations