Sit Alone

I sit alone to wonder why things are how they are I sit alone with no ones shoulder to cry on I sit alone with not even myself to rely on I trust many yet never myself I have lost so much over the years because i give out my heart and soul to freely so much so that I lost who I really was in the process I long to be who I used to be happy, not with how I looked, but who I was and the people I loved were the ones I could trust with everything But see I had let them go because I trusted in me not what I had sometimes I break down from seeing how the years have gone funny you don't notice while they are flying by but one day you suddenly stop and start to cry and you wonder how you made it through without the family and friends you once knew and little ones have grown up in a blind of an eye and you were hardly there to see it happening once you realize that time is slipping away from you you may feel like there's not much you can do I did but then for me, my family and friends welcomed me back with open arms and it's so good to be here with everyone again had it not been for everyone being there for me supporting me, and telling me how I could do this or that I wouldn't be able to continue on looking for people from my past who weigh heavily on my mind they have been extremely hard to find but I still try, and am starting to hold my head up high and perhaps sooner than later I will not sit alone to wonder any longer