Silver Lining?

Is the sky beginning to clear Are these past years of heavy deluge ready to be washed away Will a Normal life be finally presented to me It is dark and Gray in my World of Today Negative pessimism that continues to Stay Once,the Light was clear and Magical Pointing the way toward a Path less tragical It guided me forward to a Destiny befitting but,alas..I am walking toward the darkness and quiting Nobody from around these Parts knows my Name Why can the best of both worlds be mine- without the fortune or her Fame? Negative Feedback is mostly coming from my Brain Well accustomed to our Fire as well as the rain 35 yrs of the -HIT hitting the fan Trying to accomplish the best that I can Still,though..Life's manure still hits me in the mouth Lonely plus Battered, The only Road that I haven't yet tried is pointing South Mother lost me when the 13th year became an unlucky number Foes of the meek & timid Mock this Face whereever it may Smile or convey Just some silly words,within the sound of my voice TODAY Growing up in the 80's Reaching Adulthood iof the 90's and finally, the advancing seasons of this millienium Who knows when the Silver Lining will be Mine Frustrated and saddened by the World out there,unkind Does the Lord desire to lift this Heavy Veil that I view Every so often,my Moment may be Due Again,I fear,though.. the Shadow of Dread People who exclaim:HEY BUDDY,-UCK YOU!! And nothingness returns To taunt the Misery still within my head I HOPE NOT.. Living is better than killing one self DEAD!