Silence Kills

i wrote that i was lucky just the other day yet i cant express how i feel verbally i wish there was a cure so i can say what my heart is deeply feeling everyday when i get the spotlight i freeze in freight i end up hurting you and that isnt right i whisper how im feeling cause i know you cant hear when the time comes my words disappears im sorry but it seems i cant change maybe im copping out or just plain afriad i really do trust you but i cant seem to let go i wish i wasnt holding back so i can tell you so i always feel dumb when you ask me how i feel because i say nothing when thats not how i feel my heart starts to pound like im running in a race you repeat your question and its like im stranded out in space im sorry that im treating you so unfair you deserve better and me expressing how i feel whenever you tell me that its "cool" more and more i feel like a fool i wish it wasnt so hard for me because i truly want you to truly see that i care just as strongly for you like you care for me...