Sick

I gotta stop, Thinking myself sick Staring at your picture wondering when my life will begin I cant help it I cant let go I wanna live and die in your shadow If i hold my breath Will this moment last? I am pathetically living in the past Holding on a thread of an illusion I rather live in this delusion I have come with the conclusion That life without you, is not worth the space Even though in your thoughts Ive been erased To you Im just a moment of rash decision A pathetic girl you took an interest in You don't know how much you held In your palm, i rose and fell All alone now is my hell Sitting in this lonely barren room I wrapped myself in my cocoon Infatuated with my gloom Diseased,with a broken heart My soul is split apart A missing hole in my being Blackness surrounds my heart that isn't beating Finish me from my sadness If you care at all you'll stop this madness Put me out of my despair Shoot me if you dare I guess ill keep on living With this all consuming demon With the constant gnawing at my soul With me dying in the darkness Away from human eyes If you deny me its no big surprise This is how it was meant to be Living my with love as my lethal disease