Shutting the Door of My Heart

I’m shutting the door of my heart To give myself time to heal I’m entering into silence I'm numbing myself not to feel I’m going to stoke the fire And throw painful memories in I’m going sit and watch them burn For what you’ve done to me is sin I’m going to purge my heart of you Use the strongest lock on the door I’m going to survive and move on Won’t accept the hurt any more I’m going to wrap myself in beauty Will burn incense to the Divine I’ll pray for the needed wisdom To bring grace to this heart of mine I’m going to have a good cry Unleash the torrent of pain I’ll wait for cleansing to start Be purified by salty rain I’m going to learn the hard lesson To never mean words that I say I’ll be my heart and soul’s sentinel Guarding the entrance night and day Yes, I am closing my heart’s door You've demolished and torn the place I’m going to trash reminders That make me envision your face I’m going to make this a fortress A haven from the storm without I’m going to make the walls sound proof So I can rant and rave and shout I’m going to endure withdrawal Live through this madness and pain I’m going to reclaim my life I’m going to be well and sane I'm shutting the door of my heart But the window's open, you see How I hope that you will climb in And make passionate love to me Eileen Manassian Ghali